So I have started this back up. I normally wouldn’t do this unless my mind becomes stressfull. Well so far this past six months it has been a long hard ride. I was married for ten years (stepping stone) I put everything into my marriage and stopped focusing on myself. I guess this was a bad sign that I lost my overall mindset from the past. I raised my stepson the best I could and maintained his grades and then push my wife forward into her career. I got her into a house and a brand new car. While I withered away and gained weight. Its an intersting tell of how things end up being humans are just shit and I dont think love is honestly real anymore. I mean the damage that I forgave throughout the relationship I should have just walked. But thats life I guess I dont think Ill ever marry again or trust a woman. You can build them up provide them the best results a home that would be paid off in 7 years. But they fall into the feelings over logic and boom everything hits the fan. So I guess my plans need to change now. I lost my family, My house, and just recently my career due to drinking through depression. So I started a new journey where im sober and working on myself. Went from 450lb to 225lb. Gym 5 days a week. Class 1 hour a day. So Lets see. I will try to post everyday if possible so I can fix my head.
Plan A.
Have a family
Paid off house
Travel
Plan B.
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Hello world welcome to the struggle!
