Sitting here at my desk working these contracts and making sure its business as normal. Playlist hitting all the right notes clearing my head and keeping me on my toes. I just dont understand so much of this shit anymore. Like everything was planned why am I stuck on this why don’t I just simply move on and change my life for the better. Its interesting my own name was destroyed and lied. I was made to be ther bad guy while you took the one man who stood by you and built you up. You couldn’t even be a mother and asked for help. I took everything to ehart and made promises I wish I didn’t have to keep. Now that Im old I understand why people just dip now adays and dont want to put time and effort into someone that hurts them. I guess I just wasn’t smart enough. Fixed your credit put you in a house raised your sont o be the man you wanted him to be. Got you set in a career that could earn you real money. What was I given. Heart break and being torn apart. I guess a dog really is a mans best friend. There is no loyalty in this world anymore.
I really didn’t think I would end up alone in my life…… Now there is nothing preventing it. Starting over in your 30s is harder then I thought. I didn’t get any benefits just got beaten through the mud. Shit sucks.