Injection

I thought I would post everyday. Shit I already fucked that up. As I jab this needle into my skin to put the test into my body I wonder If my past endevours where worth it. Even better The wife thing I keep complaining about use to hold the idea over me I couldn’t cum unless I had some mental connection. Week 3 where she can’t get me to cum. Its funny its like the the bullshit that kept her safe from me cheating is no focusing on her unable to complete the task. I dont know whats going on anymore. Do I feel for her anymore. Is life a real thing or is it just an injection of thought I needed today a day late to prevent me from finding myself ina depresssion state. I just now checked my grades witrh this college course Im taking so far good. Teacher likes my info so Im glad about that I was able to get the info out there. So She came by with the intention of empting my chamber and I almost felt nothing. Like do I have feelings for her anymore all the lies the deception. All the work I poured into making her who she was only to be discarded. Whats the point anymore Im living in a seperate house away from here because she couldn’t keep control or do the right thing. I think divorce is in the works fully. As In I burn this bridge and learn to be hermit. At least right now any sucess I see is legally protected against her with this legal seperation. WHY DO PEOPLE GET MARRIED AT ALL is running through my head all women seem to be whores. I never was this sexist the enviroment shaped me. Maybe my generation is just fucked.