So far everything has been good. It’s weird she doesn’t want me around then wants me to dominate her like one day a week. This whole situation is interesting and amusing. I have been focusing on my own mental health this week. To be honest I wasn’t sure about showing up but did anyway. Maybe I’m drawn to the attention she shows me when she wants to try to lock me in. Honestly, there is so much going on in my head it’s no easy answer to what I should do. Either way I’m sitting on the couch just watching TV with her with her head restIng in my lap.
Maybe I’m just retarded She basically wants me around when she needs me. And she doesn’t want to fully let me go. Wonder where my head will go in the long run. I guess things as adults just don’t make sense unless you go through the motions.