My mind went through the motions. Is sex really so valuable? I don’t know if age finally caught up with me or I just got burnt out on all the struggles that came with it and the drama. I used to think as long as myt partner put out I was comfortable almost dealing with all the drama that could occur. Now that I have suffered and saw that it wasn’t really ever worth it. Im not sure the mindset to follow anymore. I think Im just burnt out on all of it. Went from sexual activity probably 3 times a day almost every day to once a week and what has changed. Well first off I seem to have more motivation to work on myself. Im slowly learning to give up porn and move on from the idea of chasing things that are unrealisticly unreachable. She hot she has a body wtf she want with me. I ain’t got the bank to hold her down before she simply moves on. Women these days are so materialistic that its basicly pointless to deal with them. So brainwashed on the idea of the herd mentality of boss bitch that they buy shit they dont need to look good and what does it do for there looks nothing there are simply not doing it for man thats the truth they mainly do it so other women don’t judge them. Blah just overall dumb shit. drizzle drizzle
Either way finally got home and saw alot of my 3d printer parts came in so excited to finally be making movement in the right direction. Today is my off day so I got to find something to do to keep my head moving forward in right direction. I ended up wearing my watch again so maybe I can curve alot of these bad habbits. Any urger to message her shock, any urge to watch porn shock, any time I catch myself not keeping up with schedule shock. Well lets see how well this works out for this month.
