Dinner Last Night

Went to a friends house last night and we grilled some burgers. Didn’t realise the truth behind the meaning of we all deal with our problems and you truely don’t know what someone else is going through. It was an interesting talk didn’t think life could get so complicated and tough for someone. I have lived on both sides of the coin doing right and doing wrong. To see someone going through the motions of everyday life trying to stay in the light and suffer like he has was a real eye opener. Like you plan a life with someone and put all the work and effort into it just for them to change there mind. Its like how do you move forward with the life you had all planned out just to build them up and find out they didn’t give a fuck to begin with. I should have left when she cheated. I should have understood putting so much effort into someone else instead of myself was the worse choice to make. We have but one life why waste it providing and taking care of someone elses problems before your own. Professional victim hood on the side. I think movement forward is going to be interesting. Getting over my sexual desires has proven a big step in what my needs are. If you aren’t providing comfort in ways of touch, speech, and care then whats the point. I guess things really do change. I have kept my promises you haven’t kept any. I think its about time I break my main one and just let you go.